The Day I became Silent

Sunday, February 14, 2010

Fact:
In Verona, where Shakespeare's tragedy of Romeo and Juliet happened, every year thousands of love letters are sent addressed to the two romantics.


Today is Valentines Day. If you haven't received your own letter, you just wait, or better update your address, maybe Cupid is just lost looking for it.

In our apartment with some friends, we've started celebrating valentines with some red wine and nachos. We have taken some pictures, memories we would always remember as singles of course except for Myles and Mitch, who are together, and hopefully next year things will get better for us, hoping to celebrate it with our soon to be better half.

Earlier, before Valentines Day Eve, I just slept the whole day. I had nothing to do, nothing special and no someone to celebrate the occasion. As soon as I got out from bed after an afternoon sleep, I just decided to go out for some fresh air. I took a shower and took off. With no place to go I just rode a cab. I don't really know where to go. When the driver asked me, I just said Edsa Central. After a few minutes I'm at my destination and I just found my self on the place where I usually have coffee with my closest friends. Alone, I just had a few sip from my coffee, had some sticks of smoke and a few text messages from some friends. I want to go home and yet I realized I am a nobody in a no where.

I manage to go back to the apartment and yet I still feel lonely. I don't know. I hate it whenever I feel guilty of a fault I never did. I am always disregarded. A friend when others are not there to be with them. I don't know how to deal with this.

That night ended with some serenades for Myles, of course requested by Mitch, and then I wrote this blog hoping to have a better sunshine in the morning.